my thoughts about life and my life.

I found myself a bit different to other teenagers out there…

There’s a different types of teenagers in my generation and I can seriously say that my generation is seriously uncontrollable.

There are kinds of teenagers who are Aggressive, Thinker, Smart, Peer pressured, bullied and etc.

I think I am more type of teenager who is thinker and conservative. I say thinker because after all I have been through in my life with my family I actually learn from anyone’s mistakes especially to my sisters, two of my older sisters got pregnant when they are still 16 and 18 so it’s a lesson for me to think first before doing anything and it gave me more trauma to have a boyfriend that’s why ever since I never had a boyfriend and scared to make a same mistake. I say conservative because I’m not comfortable showing too much skin but I am not a nun figure :P haha! I just realize no one will respect me if I’m just wearing a small piece of clothes but I still wear tank top but with cardigan, tube but with blazer skirt but with tights… I can see myself more fashionable and respectful at the same time I don’t care if they say I am too covered, I like it more than being naked.

I am Asian but I don’t look Asian. Yes, my skin tone is whiter and my hair is brown because I have a Spanish blood.

Since I was a kid I seriously have a big problem with my Philippines time. When it’s daylight I am still sleep and snoring  but when it’s night time I am wide awake and living my life (FYI I don’t drink and smoke.) my mom used to tell me that I am not an Asian because I don’t follow the time :P (by the I am writing this 2 in the morning.)

When it comes to fashion I am not a swagger, I am more a class type but not very class and I love vintage clothes and wearing bonnet is seriously my thing.

Usually my friends judge me because of my type of music Pop, Rock, Alternative and Etc. I usually listen to Jonas Brothers, One Direction, Cher Lloyd, Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus, Taylor Swift, Adele, The Script, Coldplay, Tanner Patrick, Ed Sheeran, The Fray, Maroon 5, Gotye and Foster The people but I don’t seriously care it’s my life :P

I don’t actually have many friends. I think I only have 8 close friends and the rest is acquaintance. Trusting people is seriously hard they can sell you out.

I usually talk too much but if I met you for the first time I don’t talk too much and I am more a shy type and I won’t try to impress you I don’t believe that you should impress someone if it’s your first time to meet ‘em for me they should accept you for who you are (that’s the best :P).

Every time I see someone suffering from something especially experiencing cyber bullying I usually gave them advices and support them. I hate it when someone trying to tell me I am fat and I am worst than anyone for me being fat is not a sin so why I would feel guilty? I love myself so if you hate me than go on and be happy and I’ll pray for you that someday you’ll get a life. People from the internet don’t have any idea if that person is suffering and starting to hurt themselves because of your words and in fact they don’t really know that person.

I used to hurt myself like cutting and eating disorder but I am done with that I am stronger now.

I just want to find the right guy for me and I’ll be waiting for him until the day I die because he’s the only one can complete me and he’s my happiness. I think every girl in this world are looking for their true love because for me when you find the right person for you, you won’t ask for more and every day is like a special day.

So here’s my weird blog for today I hope all of you likes it J have a great day!

Love,

Janine xo